My best friend from childhood is visiting from Toronto tomorrow. I only found out about it on the weekend. She moved away many years ago. Whenever she came to visit, she was always thinner and I was always bigger.
It was always hard for me to be seen like that because she'd only known the skinny me before she moved. As she is one of my dearest friends and I value her opinion highly, this shamed me to the core. I know she loves me no matter what, but I always felt like because I let myself down, I let her down, too.
When I first started to lose weight, one of the things that kept me going was the thought that she might make one of her surprise visits. I never wanted to give her another awkward hug. I wanted to give her an entirely unembarrassed happy embrace without thinking twice about my big unwieldy body. In short, to feel joy at her return instead of shame for myself.
Now that the day has finally arrived, I think I'm more scared than anything else. She's bound to notice that 60 lbs of me is no longer there. I guess I hope she'll be proud of me.
Between all the 10k training preparations, the soonest I'll be able to see her is this Sunday. Hopefully there's enough time in there for me to get some new clothes. All that's really left from my mega shopping trip last September is baggy, black, and blah. Though I was waiting till goal before going shopping again, new clothes will give me a bit more confidence to face the past and embrace my friend :)
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how exciting to reunite with an old friend...esp with 60 lbs less of you :)
:D Have a great visit with your friend!
I think that the people around us do motivate us, whether they mean to or not.
I am the heaviest of my hubby's relatives. All three of his cousins have had kids and gotten married within the same 2 years of us. So we are all in the same part of life, although G and I are the oldest.
These cousins help to motivate me to get rid of the weight, They are all thin and pretty and here I am fat and well, not so hot. I do not want us to be the heavy couple any more.
I hope you have a great time with your friend!
It's always fun to see someone after loosing weight. I hope you get an awesome reaction!
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