Thursday, May 1, 2008

The morning after

I wish I could say that it all went well. It did go well in that I was able to see my friend again, talk, and laugh. However, there's more than a few things different about her that I feel like I don't know her anymore. I'm feeling rather sad about it this morning.

The topic of my weight loss didn't come up; neither of us remarked on anything close to it. This is because our roles were reversed. I had lost weight, but she had gained weight. It was startling to see her like that. Was this what it was like for her four years ago when she last visited?

It all felt rather awkward. I didn't want to be all excited about my success with weight loss when she had gained so much. So we didn't mention it and talked about other things.

The other things is what I'm feeling sad about. We've grown in different directions. Her interests seem different from mine. I wonder if it makes her sad, too? We're going out again tonight. Maybe last night was just first night jitters.


amma15 said...

ok that sounds really awkward, neither of you mentioned your weight loss??? 60something pounds is ALOT it's weird that she didn't say anything.

Heather said...

I actually know how you feel. Two years ago after some bad times I moved home with my parents for the summer and got together with my childhood best friend but it was very awkward. She (as well as the other people she hangs out with) had never left home or had gone out to the mainland for a bit of work then moved back. I realized how far we had grown apart and it was a little sad. We always had different goals...I was a 4.0 GPA gal and she was a high school drop out but after so many years apart we had lost that intimate connection we had as youths.