- I achieved all my 2008 goals except one (the step class; I couldn't find one)
- I have gallstones
- My grandmother passed away
- Needle biopsies hurt like a sunnuva
- I don't have thyroid cancer
- I do have Hashimoto's Thyroiditis
- I haven't exercised in a coon's age (how old are coons anyways? answer.)
- Baby stroller fit puts the boots to my sad flabby body
- More happened, didn't it? Surely it did. Must blame pregnancy brain. Oh wait...I already had the baby...dangit...
Showing posts with label General Updates. Show all posts
Showing posts with label General Updates. Show all posts
Monday, August 3, 2009
A year in the life of Tiny Trim
As I mentioned before, a lot has happened in the last year or so. To make this a less painful read, here's a recap in point-form:
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Long awaited update
Having dropped off the face of the planet for the last three months, I'm finally ready to talk about what's been happening. I'm very sorry for any worry I might have caused. It's been a tough slog for sure.
The bad news is that the past few months have been hell. The good news is that I'm pregnant :)
But let's begin at the beginning...
After I returned from my trip to Disneyland, I was inundated with projects at work. I had no time for anything during the day but that. Combined with training for the half-marathon, I had precious little extra time. What time I had remaining, I used to do regular household chores. Cleaning, shopping, errands, etc.
Weeks passed in a blur and then on a fateful Saturday morning at the end of September, I peed on a stick. After only two months of trying, Mr. Trim and I had achieved our biggest wish– a bun was growing in the oven.
Unfortunately, things went from happy to awful in short order. There was some financial stress. I started spotting when I shouldn't have been and was sent for an early ultrasound. I was also told absolutely no exercise because of the spotting. My thyroid was deemed underactive and a lump was discovered on it. I was then sent for a thyroid ultrasound. Boom, boom, boom. Stressful things kept happening.
Meanwhile, I was slowly sinking into an emotional mess. Between the stress of dealing with everything above, the all-day morning sickness, and not being able to exercise at all, I went from a vibrant energetic person to someone who could barely sit on the couch all evening and watch tv. It was devastating. I withdrew. I doubted I could be a good mother. I hated what my body had become. And so on.
I knew at that point I was slipping into depression so I pre-emptively asked my doctor for help because I knew any dosage change would take time to become effective. She increased my dosage but it was too late. Within a week, I'd gone over the edge and was trapped in the deepest darkest pit of my life. I could not see my way out. I was trapped. Nothing was enjoyable. I couldn't stand to be touched. I didn't laugh. My world had become a bleak unending landscape draped in black.
At my worst point, I finally acknowledged what I was feeling was beyond normal depression and was worse than anything I had ever felt. This was one battle I couldn't win on my own. I pulled myself together enough to make two desperate calls. One to my doctor and the other to my therapist. Though difficult, it was the best thing I could've done.
In short order, I was diagnosed with antepartum depression. My medication was increased again. My doctor made sure I had weekly appointments with her so as to monitor me more closely. She also arranged an appointment with a specialist on pregnancy-related depression. While I was waiting for that appointment, I went to a number of sessions with my regular therapist. Talking helped and I began to feel better.
Slowly but surely, I was coming out of the blackness. The morning sickness was abating. My body didn't seem to be as foreign to me. And little things started falling back in place. Just as I did when I was losing weight, I started on small and acheivable goals. Flossing my teeth. Drinking water. Cleaning off my bedside table. Slowly but surely, I've been working my way up and it shows.
Between that and the care I'm receiving from the specialist, I'm on the mend and within inches of being as normal as the situation will allow. I wish I could say that pregnancy has been sunshine and daisies, but it hasn't been. But that's okay. I'm told that many woman experience a number of the same things as I did and that it's okay to not "like" being pregnant. Not everyone glows. Certainly not me!
But now that I have a noticeable bump, it's an indescribable feeling. I have reassurance. As well as an outwardly visible sign. Not that huge sore boobs aren't a visible sign, but they're not fun. Cradling the bump with your hand in the middle of the night, now that's a nice feeling.
As of this date, I've got appointments up the wazoo with the specialist, another therapist in pregnancy-related issues, as well as an endocrinologist for my thyroid. Though our health care system can be a little slow sometimes, it moved really fast to help me and the bump. I am so glad we have such great health care workers in this country.
Emotionally, I'm doing pretty good now. Physically, much improved. There are still a few things here and there that need working on but at least they seem to be within reach.
If there's one blessing to be had it's this: the bump has been growing despite everything. The early ultrasound at 7 weeks revealed a teeny tiny beating heart. At 9 weeks, I heard the heartbeat in my doctor's office. At 12 weeks, the bump came out of hiding and told me I needed bigger pants. And today at 13 weeks I'm feeling like it was worth all the difficulties to get to this point.
As for my blog, I'm afraid it's going to go into stasis for now. I'll still keep it active, but won't be writing new posts for awhile now. Once the bump is born and life settles into something of a routine, I'll be back on Weight Watchers to lose the pregnancy weight. Until then, thanks for the support and kind words over the years. I'll see you in 9 months :)
The bad news is that the past few months have been hell. The good news is that I'm pregnant :)
But let's begin at the beginning...
After I returned from my trip to Disneyland, I was inundated with projects at work. I had no time for anything during the day but that. Combined with training for the half-marathon, I had precious little extra time. What time I had remaining, I used to do regular household chores. Cleaning, shopping, errands, etc.
Weeks passed in a blur and then on a fateful Saturday morning at the end of September, I peed on a stick. After only two months of trying, Mr. Trim and I had achieved our biggest wish– a bun was growing in the oven.
Unfortunately, things went from happy to awful in short order. There was some financial stress. I started spotting when I shouldn't have been and was sent for an early ultrasound. I was also told absolutely no exercise because of the spotting. My thyroid was deemed underactive and a lump was discovered on it. I was then sent for a thyroid ultrasound. Boom, boom, boom. Stressful things kept happening.
Meanwhile, I was slowly sinking into an emotional mess. Between the stress of dealing with everything above, the all-day morning sickness, and not being able to exercise at all, I went from a vibrant energetic person to someone who could barely sit on the couch all evening and watch tv. It was devastating. I withdrew. I doubted I could be a good mother. I hated what my body had become. And so on.
I knew at that point I was slipping into depression so I pre-emptively asked my doctor for help because I knew any dosage change would take time to become effective. She increased my dosage but it was too late. Within a week, I'd gone over the edge and was trapped in the deepest darkest pit of my life. I could not see my way out. I was trapped. Nothing was enjoyable. I couldn't stand to be touched. I didn't laugh. My world had become a bleak unending landscape draped in black.
At my worst point, I finally acknowledged what I was feeling was beyond normal depression and was worse than anything I had ever felt. This was one battle I couldn't win on my own. I pulled myself together enough to make two desperate calls. One to my doctor and the other to my therapist. Though difficult, it was the best thing I could've done.
In short order, I was diagnosed with antepartum depression. My medication was increased again. My doctor made sure I had weekly appointments with her so as to monitor me more closely. She also arranged an appointment with a specialist on pregnancy-related depression. While I was waiting for that appointment, I went to a number of sessions with my regular therapist. Talking helped and I began to feel better.
Slowly but surely, I was coming out of the blackness. The morning sickness was abating. My body didn't seem to be as foreign to me. And little things started falling back in place. Just as I did when I was losing weight, I started on small and acheivable goals. Flossing my teeth. Drinking water. Cleaning off my bedside table. Slowly but surely, I've been working my way up and it shows.
Between that and the care I'm receiving from the specialist, I'm on the mend and within inches of being as normal as the situation will allow. I wish I could say that pregnancy has been sunshine and daisies, but it hasn't been. But that's okay. I'm told that many woman experience a number of the same things as I did and that it's okay to not "like" being pregnant. Not everyone glows. Certainly not me!
But now that I have a noticeable bump, it's an indescribable feeling. I have reassurance. As well as an outwardly visible sign. Not that huge sore boobs aren't a visible sign, but they're not fun. Cradling the bump with your hand in the middle of the night, now that's a nice feeling.
As of this date, I've got appointments up the wazoo with the specialist, another therapist in pregnancy-related issues, as well as an endocrinologist for my thyroid. Though our health care system can be a little slow sometimes, it moved really fast to help me and the bump. I am so glad we have such great health care workers in this country.
Emotionally, I'm doing pretty good now. Physically, much improved. There are still a few things here and there that need working on but at least they seem to be within reach.
If there's one blessing to be had it's this: the bump has been growing despite everything. The early ultrasound at 7 weeks revealed a teeny tiny beating heart. At 9 weeks, I heard the heartbeat in my doctor's office. At 12 weeks, the bump came out of hiding and told me I needed bigger pants. And today at 13 weeks I'm feeling like it was worth all the difficulties to get to this point.
As for my blog, I'm afraid it's going to go into stasis for now. I'll still keep it active, but won't be writing new posts for awhile now. Once the bump is born and life settles into something of a routine, I'll be back on Weight Watchers to lose the pregnancy weight. Until then, thanks for the support and kind words over the years. I'll see you in 9 months :)
Sunday, August 24, 2008
On my way
In about seven hours, I'll be at the airport on my way to Disneyland! Normally this would mean a vacation for the blog, too. However, I have a TrimBot that will be posting articles every day at 7:00 a.m. PST. With the exception of Thursday's Thought, it's a food-themed week with product and recipe reviews as well as an online cookbook tool.Have a great week everyone, and I'll see you next Saturday!
Thursday, August 21, 2008
It's business time
I think I might've killed Mr. Trim with baby making. This is to explain my absence for the last week or so. Poor guy. He's really quite tired, hehe.
In other news, I think I might've lost more weight this week despite not exercising at all. I've been feeling rundown and tired and generally like I've been fighting a bug. I gave myself the week off to try and get better. We'll see what the official scale brings on Saturday. I may need to add yet another point to my daily allowance.
Also, Weight Watchers called me about working for them. There were some positions that opened up that would've fit my availability. Unfortunately, I had to decline. Full baby-making hadn't started when I first applied. Now that it has, I didn't think it'd be fair to them to put me through training when it was possible I'd either have to quit or take a leave of absence.
I'm still very grateful and pleased they even gave me a chance! I was told that if things changed for me, to give them a call.
Lastly, I'll be going on vacation soon. The next two days are filled with weddings, Sunday I'll be packing, and Monday I'm going to Disneyland for five days! Whoohoo!
I'll still try to post my weigh-in on Saturday. I'll also try to get some posts pre-written for the auto TrimBot to post in my absence. That may or may not happen as it's gearing up for quite the busy weekend. Speaking of which...yoohooo, Mr. Trim, can I see you for a moment? *hubbahubba*
In other news, I think I might've lost more weight this week despite not exercising at all. I've been feeling rundown and tired and generally like I've been fighting a bug. I gave myself the week off to try and get better. We'll see what the official scale brings on Saturday. I may need to add yet another point to my daily allowance.
Also, Weight Watchers called me about working for them. There were some positions that opened up that would've fit my availability. Unfortunately, I had to decline. Full baby-making hadn't started when I first applied. Now that it has, I didn't think it'd be fair to them to put me through training when it was possible I'd either have to quit or take a leave of absence.
I'm still very grateful and pleased they even gave me a chance! I was told that if things changed for me, to give them a call.
Lastly, I'll be going on vacation soon. The next two days are filled with weddings, Sunday I'll be packing, and Monday I'm going to Disneyland for five days! Whoohoo!
I'll still try to post my weigh-in on Saturday. I'll also try to get some posts pre-written for the auto TrimBot to post in my absence. That may or may not happen as it's gearing up for quite the busy weekend. Speaking of which...yoohooo, Mr. Trim, can I see you for a moment? *hubbahubba*
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Free and clear!
Mr. Trim and I can start making babies now :)
I went to my doctor's appointment yesterday. It was with the replacement doctor as my regular doctor isn't back until September. She was still excellent, allayed my fears, and gave me the green light.
In particular, I was worried about my medication. As I suspected (but needed to confirm), the benefits of my medication far outweigh the minuscule risk to the baby. A happy healthy mom is the best thing for a happy healthy baby.
I was also sent for pre-screening blood tests. Usually they do them after you get pregnant, but it's also good to do it beforehand. Several vials of blood later, I was starting to whimper. Fortunately, the flobotomist stopped at seven. Even still, today my arm is still aching.
That's it in a nutshell. Mr. Trim and I will be starting right away. I might not be posting as much. I hope you understand ;)
I went to my doctor's appointment yesterday. It was with the replacement doctor as my regular doctor isn't back until September. She was still excellent, allayed my fears, and gave me the green light.
In particular, I was worried about my medication. As I suspected (but needed to confirm), the benefits of my medication far outweigh the minuscule risk to the baby. A happy healthy mom is the best thing for a happy healthy baby.
I was also sent for pre-screening blood tests. Usually they do them after you get pregnant, but it's also good to do it beforehand. Several vials of blood later, I was starting to whimper. Fortunately, the flobotomist stopped at seven. Even still, today my arm is still aching.
That's it in a nutshell. Mr. Trim and I will be starting right away. I might not be posting as much. I hope you understand ;)
Monday, August 11, 2008
A weekend without friends
I spent the whole weekend without friends. It's amazing just how on plan I was. Normally I have a twilight zone that starts Saturday morning where all the food I eat mysteriously never makes it into my tracker. I do love my friends, but sometimes it's nice when they're out of town and I can get a "me time" weekend.
Saturday, I went to the farmer's market and bought pints of blueberries and strawberries to make more freezer jam. In the afternoon, I went for my long-distance training run. It was overcast and threatening to rain, but I did it anyways.
As I started running, I sorta wished it would rain...just a little...so I could feel all hardcore and stuff. Well wouldn't you know it, it POURED. The heavens opened and dropped buckets of water. Every part of me was soaked by the time I got back to the car. I was also covered in trail dirt up to my bum. Wish granted. But with a bit more gusto than I expected.
At the end of the run I stopped off at the grocery store to pick up some milk. As I squelchily made my way up and down the aisles, I fervently hoped that people would notice and be impressed at how hardcore I looked. Though in retrospect I think I just looked wet, bedraggled, and dirty. And I suspect there might've been an employee following me around with a mop.
The rest of the afternoon was spent drying off, watching the Olympics, making a batch of whole-wheat butermilk biscuits, and making a training calendar sticker chart.
On Sunday, I made two batches of jam (new recipe: Balsamic Strawberry) and watched more Olympic coverage.
All-in-all a good on-plan weekend.
Saturday, I went to the farmer's market and bought pints of blueberries and strawberries to make more freezer jam. In the afternoon, I went for my long-distance training run. It was overcast and threatening to rain, but I did it anyways.
As I started running, I sorta wished it would rain...just a little...so I could feel all hardcore and stuff. Well wouldn't you know it, it POURED. The heavens opened and dropped buckets of water. Every part of me was soaked by the time I got back to the car. I was also covered in trail dirt up to my bum. Wish granted. But with a bit more gusto than I expected.
At the end of the run I stopped off at the grocery store to pick up some milk. As I squelchily made my way up and down the aisles, I fervently hoped that people would notice and be impressed at how hardcore I looked. Though in retrospect I think I just looked wet, bedraggled, and dirty. And I suspect there might've been an employee following me around with a mop.
The rest of the afternoon was spent drying off, watching the Olympics, making a batch of whole-wheat butermilk biscuits, and making a training calendar sticker chart.
On Sunday, I made two batches of jam (new recipe: Balsamic Strawberry) and watched more Olympic coverage.
All-in-all a good on-plan weekend.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Quick Friday Update
I haven't posted a real update in a while, so here it is, point form!
- Yoga: Still going, still really like it. There's a meditation/relaxation thing we do at the end on our backs; I've fallen asleep the last two times we did it. I hope I didn't snore.
- 8k: I'm running an 8k race this weekend. It's the same one my friends and I did last year with our very own police escort. I'm looking forward to NOT repeating that experience, hehe.
- Kayaking: Tomorrow I'm learning to kayak! This means I won't make it into weigh-in as usual. That feels a little weird.
- Maintenance: It's funny how quickly you get used to eating a certain amount of food. Whether it's 19 points a day or 24, the body adapts. Boy, how I've adapted!
- Coffee: I'm actually thinking of getting a decaf this morning. Maybe fauxcoffee isn't that bad.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Itchy long weekend
Sorry for the lack of updates lately. After having come off an extra long weekend, it was nice to take a break from blogging and such. I'll be using my blogger wand to turn back time and post a few things that I was up to as well as a product review.
Before I do that, I'd like to put it out there that swimmer's itch sucks. I'm an itchy mess! But at least I got out there in public no less and had a nice relaxing swim. Next time though, I'm heading for a pool or a nice river. *attempts not to scratch*
EDIT: Okay, all done with my magic wand. Scroll down to read more :)
Before I do that, I'd like to put it out there that swimmer's itch sucks. I'm an itchy mess! But at least I got out there in public no less and had a nice relaxing swim. Next time though, I'm heading for a pool or a nice river. *attempts not to scratch*
EDIT: Okay, all done with my magic wand. Scroll down to read more :)
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Motivating with muffins
As I sit here drinking my cup of fibre, I'm starting to feel that this whole thing is doable. No, not my regularity. But rather, living life after goal.
Oddly enough, it's been food that's been pulling myself out of my funk. I tried a new recipe earlier this week and last night I made a batch of low-fat muffins. It's been ages since I've baked anything other than chicken. Getting excited about new recipes is a real motivator.
Now all I have to do is not eat the remaining muffins in the freezer.
Oddly enough, it's been food that's been pulling myself out of my funk. I tried a new recipe earlier this week and last night I made a batch of low-fat muffins. It's been ages since I've baked anything other than chicken. Getting excited about new recipes is a real motivator.Now all I have to do is not eat the remaining muffins in the freezer.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Goal day shopping and other things
Aside from a bit of unplanned eating on Sunday night (note: just because you get to goal doesn't mean you're cured), things have been going pretty good during the last few days. Things are settling down and I have lots to think and talk about. Thoughts on Maintenance, plans for the future, fears, and everything else that comes along with the next phase of my journey.
So, there will be a lot of introspective posts coming up, but today I'd rather talk about what I've been doing with myself since Saturday. First, I did most of everything I had planned to do on goal day. The only thing I didn't do was the last charm for my bracelet. There's a reason for that, but that's another post.
When we went shopping, I didn't get as many clothes as I would have hoped. I was still suffering pretty badly from my cold so trying on clothes was a bit exhausting. However, what I lacked for in quantity, I made up for in quality.
The first thing I bought was a bathing suit. And I bought it without shame or embarrassment. Just walked right in among the racks and started poking around. The first suit I tried on fit so well and looked so good on me, that I actually started jumping up and down in the change room for joy. I wound up buying it and can't wait to go swimming.
Next....*drumroll*....I went shopping at Lululemon. You may recall how utterly out of place I felt the first time I tried shopping there. This time, I felt like I had a right to be there. There was a live DJ in the window which kept Mr. Trim entertained while I had fun poking around in the racks. I wound up buying a bra and some crops. The crops are a size 4! Never in a million years did I think I'd get into a size like that. The crops are currently getting hemmed and I still want to get a Lulu shirt so pics will have to wait. Size 4!
Otherwise, the last few days have been about getting rid of my cold and easing back into the swing of things. I haven't been exercising much lately due to my cold and fears about my abdominal issue, but finally made myself do a WATP video a couple of nights ago. Fortunately, I was able to do it without pain so I did it again last night. I'm hopeful that the trend continues and I'm on the mend.
That's my update for now. And of course I hope it goes without saying that I'm very grateful for all the visitors lately to my blog who've congratulated me on my goal and welcomed me to the Healthy You Challenge. You guys rock and keep me going :)
So, there will be a lot of introspective posts coming up, but today I'd rather talk about what I've been doing with myself since Saturday. First, I did most of everything I had planned to do on goal day. The only thing I didn't do was the last charm for my bracelet. There's a reason for that, but that's another post.
When we went shopping, I didn't get as many clothes as I would have hoped. I was still suffering pretty badly from my cold so trying on clothes was a bit exhausting. However, what I lacked for in quantity, I made up for in quality.
The first thing I bought was a bathing suit. And I bought it without shame or embarrassment. Just walked right in among the racks and started poking around. The first suit I tried on fit so well and looked so good on me, that I actually started jumping up and down in the change room for joy. I wound up buying it and can't wait to go swimming.
Next....*drumroll*....I went shopping at Lululemon. You may recall how utterly out of place I felt the first time I tried shopping there. This time, I felt like I had a right to be there. There was a live DJ in the window which kept Mr. Trim entertained while I had fun poking around in the racks. I wound up buying a bra and some crops. The crops are a size 4! Never in a million years did I think I'd get into a size like that. The crops are currently getting hemmed and I still want to get a Lulu shirt so pics will have to wait. Size 4!
Otherwise, the last few days have been about getting rid of my cold and easing back into the swing of things. I haven't been exercising much lately due to my cold and fears about my abdominal issue, but finally made myself do a WATP video a couple of nights ago. Fortunately, I was able to do it without pain so I did it again last night. I'm hopeful that the trend continues and I'm on the mend.
That's my update for now. And of course I hope it goes without saying that I'm very grateful for all the visitors lately to my blog who've congratulated me on my goal and welcomed me to the Healthy You Challenge. You guys rock and keep me going :)
Friday, May 30, 2008
Sick, on the couch, and reading blogs
I'm home from work today. I've come down sick with a cold and it t'aint leaving me alone. So I'm cuddled up on the couch with my notebook and am FINALLY getting around to reading the huge backlog of blogs that I've been missing.
I'm really very sorry that it's taken me so long, but I do hope y'all know you're always in my heart. And hopefully know that I've been so busy it's taken a sick day for me to get some time to actually relax.
I also saw a new number on the scale this morning. I don't want to jinx it but....well, I don't want to jinx it. We'll see what tomorrow brings :)
I'm really very sorry that it's taken me so long, but I do hope y'all know you're always in my heart. And hopefully know that I've been so busy it's taken a sick day for me to get some time to actually relax.
I also saw a new number on the scale this morning. I don't want to jinx it but....well, I don't want to jinx it. We'll see what tomorrow brings :)
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Back from the doctor's
This is a repost from the WeightWatchers.ca forums.
First of all, thank you to everyone who sent me well-wishes and thoughts. It really helped me get through the day with some sanity!
So I went to my appointment and my doctor doesn't know what's wrong with me. She did an abdominal exam and couldn't feel anything obviously inflamed or out of the ordinary.
As it could be any number of things, I was sent for a blood and urine test. I'm also being put on the waitlist for an ultrasound. If the ultra-sound appointment is too far off in the future (apparently they're overbooked right now), then she'll have me back in to discuss other tests.
And of course, if there's anything that shows up in my blood/urine results, I'll be called in for another appointment.
Lastly, I've been put on metamucil twice a day. I'm not as regular as I could be - this could be causing the problem. So, it's a big glass of fibre for me twice a day. We're both crossing our fingers that this is the cause of the problem because it's easy to fix.
All in all, even though I don't know what's wrong, I'm feeling much better. At least I know I'm not in any immediate need of a hospital.
So there you have it. More than you ever wanted to know about me and my innards. Oh, and I did get my cholesterol results...but I'll save that for another post because it's an NSV :)
First of all, thank you to everyone who sent me well-wishes and thoughts. It really helped me get through the day with some sanity!
So I went to my appointment and my doctor doesn't know what's wrong with me. She did an abdominal exam and couldn't feel anything obviously inflamed or out of the ordinary.
As it could be any number of things, I was sent for a blood and urine test. I'm also being put on the waitlist for an ultrasound. If the ultra-sound appointment is too far off in the future (apparently they're overbooked right now), then she'll have me back in to discuss other tests.
And of course, if there's anything that shows up in my blood/urine results, I'll be called in for another appointment.
Lastly, I've been put on metamucil twice a day. I'm not as regular as I could be - this could be causing the problem. So, it's a big glass of fibre for me twice a day. We're both crossing our fingers that this is the cause of the problem because it's easy to fix.
All in all, even though I don't know what's wrong, I'm feeling much better. At least I know I'm not in any immediate need of a hospital.
So there you have it. More than you ever wanted to know about me and my innards. Oh, and I did get my cholesterol results...but I'll save that for another post because it's an NSV :)
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Funny tummy
Just a quick post from me today. I've been feeling a bit under the weather for the last month and am finally getting in to see my doctor tomorrow afternoon. It's for pain that started in my upper-right abdomen when running and now it's progressed to being a constant low ache no matter what I'm doing. I've been trying not to worry about it but have been failing miserably this evening.
On the bright side, at least I'll finally find out what my cholesterol level is. Some of you might recall that I had a blood test done late last year. What with work being busy and all sorts of other things going on, I never got around to making an appointment to get the results. Yeah. My bad. But hey, better late than never.
On the bright side, at least I'll finally find out what my cholesterol level is. Some of you might recall that I had a blood test done late last year. What with work being busy and all sorts of other things going on, I never got around to making an appointment to get the results. Yeah. My bad. But hey, better late than never.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Long weekend successfully fun
Oy vey, what a weekend! I hope everyone else had as good a long weekend as I did. I'm still recovering!I know there's still a few things to report on, but I'm at work now so it'll have to wait till later. In the meantime, I'm off to prop me up with some caffeine and aspirin, hehe.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Aha.
I realized today why I've been feeling all discombobulated, down, and out-of-sorts this last week. My period started today, meaning all last week and up until today was typical Tiny Trim "I cry at car commercials" PMS.
You'd think I'd remember after all these years that this happens every month.
You'd think I'd remember after all these years that this happens every month.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
The morning after
I wish I could say that it all went well. It did go well in that I was able to see my friend again, talk, and laugh. However, there's more than a few things different about her that I feel like I don't know her anymore. I'm feeling rather sad about it this morning.
The topic of my weight loss didn't come up; neither of us remarked on anything close to it. This is because our roles were reversed. I had lost weight, but she had gained weight. It was startling to see her like that. Was this what it was like for her four years ago when she last visited?
It all felt rather awkward. I didn't want to be all excited about my success with weight loss when she had gained so much. So we didn't mention it and talked about other things.
The other things is what I'm feeling sad about. We've grown in different directions. Her interests seem different from mine. I wonder if it makes her sad, too? We're going out again tonight. Maybe last night was just first night jitters.
The topic of my weight loss didn't come up; neither of us remarked on anything close to it. This is because our roles were reversed. I had lost weight, but she had gained weight. It was startling to see her like that. Was this what it was like for her four years ago when she last visited?
It all felt rather awkward. I didn't want to be all excited about my success with weight loss when she had gained so much. So we didn't mention it and talked about other things.
The other things is what I'm feeling sad about. We've grown in different directions. Her interests seem different from mine. I wonder if it makes her sad, too? We're going out again tonight. Maybe last night was just first night jitters.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tonight's the night
I'll finally be seeing my friend tonight. We're taking her and her boyfriend out to dinner at a lovely Thai place. Fortunately, I've been blessed with a good hair day and I'm wearing a cute little top I found at Winners on the weekend.
I feel and look good, but I'm still trying not to be nervous!
I feel and look good, but I'm still trying not to be nervous!
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Coming up for air and makeup
Why does everything have to happen in one week? It's like some personal Murphy's Law that follows me around. Busy week? Let's add more!
Work is crazy. We're full out on a project with a tight deadline. There's tonnes of 10k stuff happening (training runs, shopping, dinner making, package pickups). The cat had to go to the vet yesterday and now needs to have medicine and cleaning twice daily (don't worry, he's okay). Plus, Mr. Trim and I have been trying to find time to clean and decorate between all of this so our place looks presentable to guests and the realtor coming over tonight. Was I up till 11:30 last night stuffing things in cupboards? Why yes I was!
Aggggh!
And yes, I know I ought not to be blogging. And I shouldn't have waited three years to start decorating. But it helps to whine :)
So all this is going on and I'm thinking that there's just no way I can get to this Clinique sale that Pegger and PM have told me about. I convinced myself out of it until I saw the flyer for it today. Now I totally want to drop everything and get girlified. To heck with the house! Hopefully there's enough of the bonus gifts left on Saturday morning because that's the only conceivable time I can get there.
In slightly related news...I've been cleaning my face and moisturizing every day. I missed a few here and there, but in general I've been keeping up with it. Though my pores are still huge and that silly sunspot is still taunting me, I think my face has been looking somewhat better. Or at the very least, not oily. Yay for doing girl things!
Work is crazy. We're full out on a project with a tight deadline. There's tonnes of 10k stuff happening (training runs, shopping, dinner making, package pickups). The cat had to go to the vet yesterday and now needs to have medicine and cleaning twice daily (don't worry, he's okay). Plus, Mr. Trim and I have been trying to find time to clean and decorate between all of this so our place looks presentable to guests and the realtor coming over tonight. Was I up till 11:30 last night stuffing things in cupboards? Why yes I was!
Aggggh!
And yes, I know I ought not to be blogging. And I shouldn't have waited three years to start decorating. But it helps to whine :)
So all this is going on and I'm thinking that there's just no way I can get to this Clinique sale that Pegger and PM have told me about. I convinced myself out of it until I saw the flyer for it today. Now I totally want to drop everything and get girlified. To heck with the house! Hopefully there's enough of the bonus gifts left on Saturday morning because that's the only conceivable time I can get there.
In slightly related news...I've been cleaning my face and moisturizing every day. I missed a few here and there, but in general I've been keeping up with it. Though my pores are still huge and that silly sunspot is still taunting me, I think my face has been looking somewhat better. Or at the very least, not oily. Yay for doing girl things!
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
License to cheer
My driver's license came in the mail today. Whee! And my picture isn't half-bad, either. When I flipped it over to see my weight, it was a bit anti-climatic. I don't think of weight in terms of kilos so seeing it that way was like, "Yay! 61 kgs! I don't know what that means! But...yay!"
In completely different news, I went to a hockey game tonight and our team won. I earned a lot of APs jumping around swinging my towel. I had my pedometer on and I went 2000 steps without moving a foot from my seat.
I haven't had a chance yet to go shopping and I'm not sure when I'll be able to. Most of this week is all 10k related. Tomorrow is the last clinic run. Thursday is a homework run. Friday is a pasta dinner (cooked by yours truly), and Saturday is errand/housework day. Not only am I trying to get me in shape for my friend, but my house, too!
In completely different news, I went to a hockey game tonight and our team won. I earned a lot of APs jumping around swinging my towel. I had my pedometer on and I went 2000 steps without moving a foot from my seat.
I haven't had a chance yet to go shopping and I'm not sure when I'll be able to. Most of this week is all 10k related. Tomorrow is the last clinic run. Thursday is a homework run. Friday is a pasta dinner (cooked by yours truly), and Saturday is errand/housework day. Not only am I trying to get me in shape for my friend, but my house, too!
Monday, April 21, 2008
Childhood friend
My best friend from childhood is visiting from Toronto tomorrow. I only found out about it on the weekend. She moved away many years ago. Whenever she came to visit, she was always thinner and I was always bigger.
It was always hard for me to be seen like that because she'd only known the skinny me before she moved. As she is one of my dearest friends and I value her opinion highly, this shamed me to the core. I know she loves me no matter what, but I always felt like because I let myself down, I let her down, too.
When I first started to lose weight, one of the things that kept me going was the thought that she might make one of her surprise visits. I never wanted to give her another awkward hug. I wanted to give her an entirely unembarrassed happy embrace without thinking twice about my big unwieldy body. In short, to feel joy at her return instead of shame for myself.
Now that the day has finally arrived, I think I'm more scared than anything else. She's bound to notice that 60 lbs of me is no longer there. I guess I hope she'll be proud of me.
Between all the 10k training preparations, the soonest I'll be able to see her is this Sunday. Hopefully there's enough time in there for me to get some new clothes. All that's really left from my mega shopping trip last September is baggy, black, and blah. Though I was waiting till goal before going shopping again, new clothes will give me a bit more confidence to face the past and embrace my friend :)
It was always hard for me to be seen like that because she'd only known the skinny me before she moved. As she is one of my dearest friends and I value her opinion highly, this shamed me to the core. I know she loves me no matter what, but I always felt like because I let myself down, I let her down, too.
When I first started to lose weight, one of the things that kept me going was the thought that she might make one of her surprise visits. I never wanted to give her another awkward hug. I wanted to give her an entirely unembarrassed happy embrace without thinking twice about my big unwieldy body. In short, to feel joy at her return instead of shame for myself.
Now that the day has finally arrived, I think I'm more scared than anything else. She's bound to notice that 60 lbs of me is no longer there. I guess I hope she'll be proud of me.
Between all the 10k training preparations, the soonest I'll be able to see her is this Sunday. Hopefully there's enough time in there for me to get some new clothes. All that's really left from my mega shopping trip last September is baggy, black, and blah. Though I was waiting till goal before going shopping again, new clothes will give me a bit more confidence to face the past and embrace my friend :)
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