Wednesday, April 11, 2007

What have I done?

I took a long look at my naked self in the mirror last night. I noticed all the usual lumps and rolls and, for the first time, stretch marks. Stretch marks. I've never been pregnant and yet there they are. For the first time since gaining all this weight, I had a very sobering thought...
What have I done?

Despite all the warning signs over the years, I let pound by pound creep on. And the result is this. I made myself into this.

As depressing as all this sounds, another more encouraging thought followed on the heels of the last...This is not how I want to be.

And it's true. This is not how I want to be. This is not how my body wants to be. And last night I finally realized it. It's given me a new determination to work hard and when those last few pounds come off I can look at myself in the mirror and say, look at what I've done!


Wheebs said...

Good for you for turning it into something positive! That inspires me :)

Jenera Healy said...

I feel the same way when I look in the mirror too-I cannot believe I got to the way I look. But I try to picture myself once I've lost the weight.

BTW, how did you do the little quote thingy?

TinyTrim said...

The quote thingy is built in to this template. There's a button on the post editor window that looks like a double quote. I just press it and blogspot does the rest :)